RBBP: Values Cards

10 Jun

I made my values cards by following the exercises in the RBBP book.  I am blown away by how much I have learned so far.  It’s like discovering a new me – and I thought I knew myself well.  If this is the only activity I did out of the whole book it still would have been worth buying.

The words that emerged for me were (in no particular order)

Movement (this from the PE-phobe!!)

Learning, Doing

Connection, Egalitarianism, Authenticity

Blank slates, Free, Open (mainly centered around time)

Action (this from the person who plans things to death – and who hasn’t been able to get a business off the ground yet . . .)

Novelty, Variety

Nature

This will help me eliminate many of the ideas I had generated in previous attempts at starting a business.  No wonder few of them spoke to me – few of them are designed with my values and vision (yet to be assembled) in mind.  I need to start thinking bigger – and incorporating these into my ideas.  I was going mainly for moneymakers (or what I thought would be) and not acknowledging that I have to sustain a venture.  It has to be meaningful.

This also helps me to see where I enjoy my current position and where it’s conflicting with my values.  I can also help to bring out the elements I enjoy most.  I love the novelty, variety, open and self-directed schedule, learning, doing, connection aspects a lot.  Because it is technology-centered, there isn’t as much movement and nature as I would like.  Also, action is a mixed bag.  Sometimes projects bog down (usually when too many people are involved) but then with other things I am free to act on my own or take the lead with a group.  Also, not everything is novel.  I am sick of doing some tasks over and over, but at least they come in batches now and I am getting efficient at them so I tend to just get them out of the way and move on to bigger and more interesting tasks.  I also view them as an opportunity for connection when they involve meeting with another staff member.  So I appreciate that there are there are really more values-oriented aspects than not about my employment, and I could work to incorporate more of what I feel is lacking.

I found it interesting that technology did not emerge as a value since I spend a LOT of time learning about and leveraging technology tools.  Well, I guess it wouldn’t be a value in and of itself anyway.  Images of technology showed up for me in Learning/Doing and initially in Connection, but then I took it out and re-did that one.  I do spend a lot of time on the computer, though . . . so am I REALLY spending all my time with technology engaged in the deeper values that came through for me as important?  Am I truly spending ALLLLLLLLL that computer or iPad time learning something new or connecting with others, or doing/taking action?  Or is that just a cover-up to avoid action?  And it’s at the expense of nature and movement, many times – or even live, F2F connection.

If I get around to it I’ll post some pics.

I’m still pretty blown away by how this shifted my thinking.  The book must have come into my life just at the right moment to be able to work with this relatively simple exercise in such a deep way.

20 Questions for June 2, 2013

3 Jun

One day late.  :)

1. What did I learn last week?

Hard work hurts, but it feels great.

2. What was my greatest accomplishment over the past week?

Mowed the slope!

3. Which moment from the last week was most memorable and why?

Co teaching.  I miss kids, and it was a good model to try to replicate next year.

4. What’s the #1 thing I need to accomplish this week?

Get ready for IC and SORLA.

5. What can I do right now to make the week less stressful?

Fold my clothes.

6. What have I struggled with in the past that might also affect the upcoming week?

Internet suck.  Bad self-talk.

7. What was last week’s biggest time sink?

Whaddayathink . . . it’s the theme that never ends . . . ‘net, ‘net, ‘net . . .

8. Am I carrying any excess baggage into the week that can be dropped?

Being fat, or at least feeling fat.  Bah.

9. What have I been avoiding that needs to be done?

Making the screens . . .

10. What opportunities are still on the table?

Continue my RBBP.  I already have some clarity on business ideas simply from doing the visualization and values exercises.

11. Is there anyone I’ve been meaning to talk to?

Nope.

12. Is there anyone who deserves a big ‘Thank You’?

Jessica

13. How can I help someone else this coming week?

Call the screening agency for Ash.

14. What are my top 3 goals for the next 3 years?

Start a business.

Make goal weight

???

15. Have any of my recent actions moved me closer to my goals?

Business – meh, not really

Weight – meh, not really

??? – why do I even have this question mark?

16. What’s the next step for each goal?

Business – make the values cards

Weight – put on my running shoes

??? – well, ????

17. What am I looking forward to during the upcoming week?

My day off on Friday . . . that’s pretty sad.

18. What are my fears?

Stuck in someone else’s employ forever.  Like that’s a bad problem to have.

19. What am I most grateful for?

B

20. What can I do to make life more beautiful?

Hug up B . . .

RBBP Visualization

20 May

I purchased The Right Brain Business Plan and just finished the Big Picture Visualization exercise.  A few points that stood out:

  • As the exercise went on, my image of my my ideal work space morphed.  It started out as my craft room, but it expanded and I shed that image.  The room was really large.  A really sleek computer workstation emerged at one end of the room, but most of the room was open, and it had a large table at one end – a huge table, actually, maybe a 10×10 table.  The room was light, maybe white or maybe not, full of windows and surrounded by nature.  It definitely did not have a lot of stuff in it.
  • When talking about abundance, money was not my first thought, though I think in my current conception I’d have to replace my salary to feel comfortable leaving my job.  It was about time!  Flexibility!
  • Conjuring my perfect customers didn’t happen.  My mind wandered off somewhere.

I also want to add that I found it interesting how many actual business ideas tried to intrude on this exercise.  Right before starting it up I had observed how little text is really in the book – lots of images, sidebars, etc. – so I had that in mind as I launched into the exercise.  Also, then as the image of the space itself emerged, I started to get new ideas or go back to old ones.  “Oh!  It could be a rental for a yoga teacher!  It could host craft classes!  It could be a baby shower/small party space!”  But I think the computer and the table were telling.  They were both about connecting people and they were both about having space to create.

Here’s something else that I just thought of!  These “you’re not worth the luxury of this exercise” thoughts kept popping into my head, specifically in the form of people who do not have the luxury to engage in something like this – the impoverished of the world, and then my Grandma.  She popped in during the visualization and I thought, oh, Grandma would think I’m nuts, she just got up and walked through life without stopping to think where she was going, and she’s perfectly happy.  Who cares?!  I’m.not.Grandma.

20 Questions for May 19, 2013

19 May

1. What did I learn last week?

An apology can be very powerful.

2. What was my greatest accomplishment over the past week?

No real “accomplishment” – have continued to engage in important relationship-building at work.

3. Which moment from the last week was most memorable and why?

The apology moment!

4. What’s the #1 thing I need to accomplish this week?

Put together and hang that blasted pegboard organizer.

5. What can I do right now to make the week less stressful?

Plan meals and order Coborn’s.

6. What have I struggled with in the past that might also affect the upcoming week?

Evening Internet.  There is a lot to do in the yard.  Should make a smaller, more manageable list of things I could get done in the evening and feel good about it.  Steps like pull/cut the baby trees, start moving dirt onto a tarp, move some of that rock to the place Gussy has wrecked, plant the impatiens I bought.

7. What was last week’s biggest time sink?

Internet, Internet, INTERNET.  EVERY WEEK IT’S THE SAME.  Bah!

8. Am I carrying any excess baggage into the week that can be dropped?

Work does not have to be frenetic just because it is for the teachers right now.  I am a valuable employee even if I am not an overloaded mess.

9. What have I been avoiding that needs to be done?

Make screens.  Clean the craft room.

10. What opportunities are still on the table?

Tech coaching/consulting business . . .

11. Is there anyone I’ve been meaning to talk to?

The financial people on our list from the appointment with Jim.

12. Is there anyone who deserves a big ‘Thank You’?

Boss lady.

13. How can I help someone else this coming week?

Bryce – can make some of those meals I’ll plan.

14. What are my top 3 goals for the next 3 years?

1.  Lose weight.  Goal is 140.

2.  Start a business and be able to reduce the number of hours I spend in outside employment.

3.  This is sad.  I don’t have a third right now.

15. Have any of my recent actions moved me closer to my goals?

1.  Took two runs this week.  Have successfully added more veggies to the diet.

2.  Right Brain Business Plan is helping me think about ideas.  Lots of other books want to start at the “I already have the idea I’m dying to implement” spot, but this one is focused on helping people identify an idea that will work well in the life they envision.

16. What’s the next step for each goal?

1.  More runs

2.  Continue to work on the steps.  Perhaps do the visualization exercise.

3.  Identify it!  It is sad to only have two goals!  Life is too short!

17. What am I looking forward to during the upcoming week?

My day off tomorrow.  :)

18. What are my fears?

I will be in a holding pattern and my days of adventure are over.  That I won’t make any lasting mark on the world.  That I will let fear take over the important work of loving and working for safety for others.

19. What am I most grateful for?

My hubby, doggies and beautiful home.

20. What can I do to make life more beautiful?

Clean the beautiful home and get rid of some of the clutter.  Take a trip!  Have a mini adventure!

20 Questions for April 14, 2013

14 Apr

1. What did I learn last week?

Work will come in waves.  Lots of irons in the fire and theeeeeen – completion.

Shingles is gross and caused by stress.

2. What was my greatest accomplishment over the past week?

Planted lots of seeds:  eBooks in LA, arranging some coteaching next week.

3. Which moment from the last week was most memorable and why?

School board presentation, because I don’t usually present to the school board.  :)

4. What’s the #1 thing I need to accomplish this week?

In the house stuff.  Cleaning up and putting away crap.  Once the weather gets nice I want to be outside.

5. What can I do right now to make the week less stressful?

Evaluate my food for the week, and make a list if I need to go to the store.

6. What have I struggled with in the past that might also affect the upcoming week?

Seasonal blues.  Baaaaaah!!!!!!!!  This winter won’t end!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

7. What was last week’s biggest time sink?

Internet.  Surprise, surprise.

8. Am I carrying any excess baggage into the week that can be dropped?

Work stuff.  I am never going to please everyone.  Weight/exercise negative self-talk.  Why?

9. What have I been avoiding that needs to be done?

Same as last week:  Cleaning up the bleeping papers all over the bleeping house.

10. What opportunities are still on the table?

TCGF.  Had a nice chat about possibilities this morning.  Need to continue to develop them.

11. Is there anyone I’ve been meaning to talk to?

Lynn, and I texted her.  Yeah!

12. Is there anyone who deserves a big ‘Thank You’?

My boss for being a great boss, and she is retiring :(

13. How can I help someone else this coming week?

The coteaching opportunity.  I must prepare so that it is actually helpful.

14. What are my top 3 goals for the next 3 years?

Become financially independent – at a minimum, earn enough from business income that both B & I can leave outside employment if we choose.

Reach goal weight (140).

3?

15. Have any of my recent actions moved me closer to my goals?

Not particularly :(

16. What’s the next step for each goal?

1.  Make a paper Wall Chart.

2.  Continue to focus . . . and keep sweets out of the house.

17. What am I looking forward to during the upcoming week?

Getting in front of kids!  Also the St. Paul PLTT meeting.

18. What are my fears?

Job and boss uncertainties.  Worried about ending up with a micromanager or worse, someone who does not value my job and eliminates it.  Or someone who will not run interference when other administrators have their own ideas of what our jobs are supposed to look like.

19. What am I most grateful for?

Health health and health.

20. What can I do to make life more beautiful?

Spring cleaning!  Continued decluttering – mental and physical.  Have been doing pretty well on the mental decluttering, actually!

I also put a house freshener on the stove as well.  This place smells like dog.  :(

20 Questions for April 7, 2013

7 Apr

Long time, no questions . . . here goes!

1. What did I learn last week?

Addiction is sinister . . .

2. What was my greatest accomplishment over the past week?

Got a lot of new things rolling at work – positive, big change type things.

3. Which moment from the last week was most memorable and why?

A phone call my hubby had, ‘cuz it was icky.  :(

4. What’s the #1 thing I need to accomplish this week?

If the weather cooperates, the pegboard organizer for the craft room.  It is holding me back creatively because that room is an explosion and I am not buying organizers until the pegboard organizer is up and filled so I can see what’s left.

5. What can I do right now to make the week less stressful?

Make the gardening list.  That’s weighing on my mind.

6. What have I struggled with in the past that might also affect the upcoming week?

Overuse of computer.  The weather is warming up, I need to be outside working toward maaaaaaany many gardening goals.

7. What was last week’s biggest time sink?

See #6.

8. Am I carrying any excess baggage into the week that can be dropped?

Worried about a critical coworker.  She’s just trying to do her best and so am I  . . . sometimes we just don’t agree on what that looks like.

9. What have I been avoiding that needs to be done?

Cleaning up the bleeping papers all over the bleeping house.

10. What opportunities are still on the table?

Business baby steps . . .

11. Is there anyone I’ve been meaning to talk to?

Lynny

12. Is there anyone who deserves a big ‘Thank You’?

Nancy and Cathy for organizing leftovers last week

13. How can I help someone else this coming week?

Curriculum committees.  Make a phone call for Bryce.

14. What are my top 3 goals for the next 3 years?

Become financially independent – at a minimum, earn enough from business income that both B & I can leave outside employment if we choose.

Reach goal weight (140).

3?

15. Have any of my recent actions moved me closer to my goals?

1.  Always working on minimizing expenses.  Eating at home a lot, but went out twice this weekend.

2.  Focusing on protein, fruits and veggies and minimizing grains/desserts.

16. What’s the next step for each goal?

1.  Make a paper Wall Chart.

2.  Continue to focus . . . and keep sweets out of the house.

17. What am I looking forward to during the upcoming week?

Community Garden work day on Saturday – meet some of the other gardeners.

18. What are my fears?

Family conflict blowing up.  Argh.

19. What am I most grateful for?

Health health and health.

20. What can I do to make life more beautiful?

Spring cleaning!  Continued decluttering – mental and physical.  Have been doing pretty well on the mental decluttering, actually!

 

To-dos Progress

3 Apr

Amazing how quickly the evening can get away from one.

I have been busy reading more business inspiration, but not feelin’ it.  Maybe the right idea hasn’t come along.  Anyway, going to keep on with some other items, mainly to try to get organized and break through the block that is my craft room, which is supposed to be a creative space and makes me just want to stay out of there.

  • DONE – Get going on “health activity” for insurance. I am locked out of my online account, meaning now I have to call (puke)
  • Wood chip the back yard (after April 15 – can get it free then from the county)
  • Dig out front garden – lay grass seed at rental
  • Make pegboard organizer for craft room. Buy magazine holders for yarn for craft room closet.
  • Finish sewing jobs – B’s helmet, my jacket velcro
  • Make screens
  • DONE – Make eye appointment
  • Get trees trimmed

Resurrecting this Blog & April to-dos

31 Mar

I need a space for my thoughts again, sometimes just to put them out there, and I guess other times to get feedback.  I think I have a lot of places to get feedback, including a forum I love, FB and IRL friends, but sometimes just need to mind dump.

I am feeling the spring cleaning bug and like I need to finish up some things before I can move on to new, bigger and better.

One of the big huge stopping places for me is the craft room.  I want to create in there but it is such a mess.  I have some organization ideas, but really need to get that done.  If I even try to do anything there, I feel blocked by not being able to find stuff, by unfinished projects I’m not that invested in, etc.  I would like for that to really be an oasis of creativity, even if it’s computer-based creativity.  Right now it’s just a mind block.

I would really like to start a business that at some point can help us leave our outside employment.  But really, it comes down to FI – financial independence.  If we can reduce our expenses enough but also increase outside streams of income, I think we can either reduce hours or quit altogether and focus on whatever other endeavors we’d like to do – more businesses, volunteering, etc.

I might go to a GTD-style mind dump, probably not tonight.  A few months ago I made a list that wasn’t a super-duper-everything list (because “everything” is never done anyway), but rather a list of things that felt doable in the evenings after work.  And now that the days are longer and lighter, that list can feel a lot more hopeful.  I might try the same thing here.

April:

  • Get going on “health activity” for insurance.  I am locked out of my online account, meaning now I have to call (puke)
  • Wood chip the back yard (after April 15 – can get it free then from the county)
  • Dig out front garden – lay grass seed at rental
  • Make pegboard organizer for craft room.  Buy magazine holders for yarn for craft room closet.
  • Finish sewing jobs – B’s helmet, my jacket velcro
  • Make screens

Will it help me be healthy for many years?

9 Sep

I am concocting a new approach to becoming more fit – for me, anyway.  :)  Tracking my food hasn’t worked – I end up bitter and hating and cheating.  Watching the scale has just added to this and made me disappointed and discouraged to the point where in the past I’ve given up my efforts.  Stupid, I know, but that’s what has happened.

So this time, I’m trying to take a different attitude.  This is similar to what is proposed in The Spark, but I haven’t really truly had my head around it.  I’m trying to view this whole journey much more as just that – a journey.  Yes, I do want to lose weight.  I have too much fat around my belly area, and diabetes runs in the family.  But just because the scale doesn’t move doesn’t mean I’m not benefiting myself when I focus on exercise.  So for now, monthly I’m going to measure waist, hips, thigh, push ups, sit ups, resting heart rate (more often).  The scale isn’t a measurement I will be using for the time being.  I want to get into a habit of exercise, a habit of activity, without letting that little thought of “this isn’t doing any good, anyway!!!” creep into my head.  I can even tell that after two runs and water aerobics I was more easily able to do the run the second time!  That’s good!

Instead, with both food and exercise I am trying to envision if each choice is going to help me be healthy for many years.  So far it’s working better with the exercise than with the food.  I can see a direct link between my choice to be active now and my ability to be active when I’m 60.  Food has been a little harder, though I’m not making any ridiculous choices.  It’s harder to pinpoint how having a noodle bowl at Pei Wei will make me fat when I’m 60, and that single action won’t, but then I tend to indulge in a treat per day, making a lot of exceptions.  I can, though, recall a few incidents in the last week or so where the thought of ultimate health did keep me from having seconds or a dessert if I wasn’t even hungry.  But really, I know at some point I will need to add some kind of tracking system back in, especially if I really want to kill the spare tire.

But for now, I’m feeling positive about my efforts.

Looking Back

9 Jun

This is another installment of the Making a Living Without a Job journal.

Page 55:  “Look Back”

This is part of a chapter about finding one’s passion.

Who was your favorite adult when you were a child?  Why?

I can’t really think of one!  Terrible!  I had a Girl Scout person I really liked, but not sure if she was my favorite favorite.  I liked all the cool things she knew how to do and all the songs she knew how to sing.

Who was your favorite friend?  What did you do together? What did you admire about your friend?

How did you spend your summers? Were they very unlike the rest of the year? In what ways?

We watched a lot of TV, but also played a LOT.  We invented games, we imagined, we created plays and games and skits and got dirty and poked around in the woods.  I dreamed a lot about what I could do in the woods and go camping and that kind of thing.  It wasn’t a whole lot different from the rest of the year, except no homework.

What was your favorite book? Movie?

I LOVED Anne of Green Gables.  She got in so much trouble, but so smart and had such a good heart.  Ever since I’ve been torn between wanting to go to PEI and knowing deep down that I really don’t because it would ruin my idea of the PEI of Anne’s life.

Who were your heroes? Were they real or fantasy people? Why did they inspire you?

What haven’t you yet done that you dreamed about doing as a child? What is its link to your desires or unfulfilled dreams today?

You know, I have done everything I used to dream about, except maybe had a really fantastic garden, though I’m working on that one.  I always loved having a garden, even as a little girl.  I used to spend a lot of time daydreaming about time in nature.

That’s fulfilling to realize.

The only thing I can say that I think I have gotten away from is that I have more fear as an adult to do service-related projects.  I’m scared now to pester people for money, or to overload others with too many asks.  As a kid, I wouldn’t have any of that.  I would just dive in headlong and go for it.

What sort of games did you play? What was your favorite?

We were inventing, inventing, inventing.  I wrote about it above.  We played Olympics, made up plays, went swimming, went on bikes all over the neighborhood, we roamed, we dug . . .

What was your role in the neighborhood where you grew up? In your family?

Did your image of yourself change when you went to school?

I’d say it wasn’t when I went to school, it was after college when I came back from a job abroad and was not able to break into the interpreting field like I so badly wanted to do.  I eventually took a teaching job and have been there since.  Up to then, I had achieved anything and everything I had set out to do.  I never did figure out where I went wrong with the interpreting gig, but I have chalked it up to bad timing and bad luck and have let that dream go now.  I am trying to get back in touch with the can-do, dream-into-reality attitude inside of me.

How did you spend time alone?

I was a dreamer, a dreamer, such a dreamer.  I would have dollies that I was arranging and setting up their little rooms even into my preteen years.  I would gaze out the window and imagine what it would be like to go snowshoeing across the fields or biking to this place or that place.  I would make drawings and crafts and try to learn how to do those things for myself.  There was always lots of material for inventing and learning at our house.  Anything for sewing, tons of stuff for drawing, books galore.  It was very conducive for developing imagination.  I also read a lot.

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